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Monday, May 29, 2006
6:29 AM

there are a muddle of thoughts in my head now..so much things i wanna say... i wanna spill ... but these things are just for God and me..... the other day in cell, we were saying how prayer is so important because there are just some things that even your closest friend doesnt know...because you share these things only with God...
i have plenty of doubts and fears... everynight i just pour them out to God..because alone i can't handle it... and if i share too much of it, well..... let's just say i dont want to... i guess im pretty easy to read... and i seem happy all the time... people say i have mood swings...and yes i admit that sometimes i do... but sometimes i feel so....... misunderstood? nah, that's not the word... i dont know how to describe it... maybe, unspecial? i dont know actually.... maybe im just having one of those days.... or maybe people might say im too sensitive... i dont know....
i mean, it's all a big blur right now... so many uncertainties... insecurities... that step of faith seems like a pretty big step, too big for my tiny feet to fill... God must fill in the gaps...
it's all a big rush... a mountain of work... piled on with worries and fears..... doubts and moments of unbelief... isn't it all so tough? and it's especially times like these, that i feel so much more homesick than i normally do... sometimes i feel so torn, and i just dont know what to do... it's so hard to be strong sometimes when all you wanna do is break down and cry.... but you know you shouldn't, cos God is in control.... but there are moments when you feel like everything is out of control...and you feel like it's all whirling around... is it just me? or is that a universal thing? i have no clue... it's comforting to know that God is there... it's reassuring to know He has my future in His hands.... it's great to know that Jesus knows how i'm feeling... not just bout the future, but bout relationships in my life with the people around me, the anxieties that are suffocating....
all i wanna do right now is curl up in bed and have a nice long talk with God...

"Be still and know that I am God."
Psalm 46:10


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