Saturday, June 17, 2006
2:23 AM

i woke up today thinking nothing was gonna be different... but i was wrong... my angel died today... my angel for 15 years... my angel that saw me through my childhood days and my teenage years...she never got to see me through adulthood... i got a call from my sister just now.. but i couldnt answer it cos i was driving...so yan jing helped me pick up the call... my sis told yan jing that they brought sindy to the vet... the minute i heard that, i went into panic mode... cos sindy has only been to the vet twice in her life... once for sterilisation.. the other for food allergy.. this was gonna be her third and final visit... on the other line, all you could hear was my sister's quivering voicee... i couldnt cry... yet... hai...
got to the restuarant and called my sister back... my sister told me that sindy had been very different that morning... you know how some days you can tell when things are different... it was one of those days for my sister... sindy looked really oddly at my sister.... no longer were her eyes cheerful and excited as they normally were everyday.. today it was one of resignment... as if she were saying to my sister " i wanna see you, just this last time.." sigh.. my sister got a call at work that evening... and my mom told her to come home...
sindy was no longer reacting to the things around her... you could tough her near her eye and she wouldnt even move.... at the vets.... the vet touched her eye ball and sindy didnt even attempt to blink... the vet did some tests and said she was healthy.. but the xray showed the problem... there was a stone lodged in the lumen of her intestines... that was what was killing her... sindy had lost all reaction and her heart was slowly weakening.. she could hardly breathe... she couldnt hold on long enough for me... just 7 more days... sigh.... she breathed her last...
i remember when we first got her way back in 1992... we chose her because she was the only puppy in the pen not chewing on my sister.. but when we brought her home.. oh boy... what a menace... i remember we used to chase her around the house everynight just to get her in the kennel... after a few days....we gave up... hehe.... i remember how she would always run into the house when there was a thunderstorm.... sindy would never ever fail to make me smile whenever i was sad... everytime i had a bad day i would just go sit with her.. and she'd make me smile.... even when i'm here... my sister would carry sindy in front of the webcam..and i'd burst out in a smile..... yet here i am now....my angel no longer here to catch my tears....
i remember how she would become ultra neurotic whenever we played games with her... and how she would bark her head off when i played the pickaboo game with her.... hehe.... and how my mom would scold us both for the big commotion.. = )
and whenever we wanted to give her a bath... we would have to drag her against her will ...get her leashed up...so we could bathe her..... she acted as if we were gonna shave her bald...so cute... resisting a bath with all that she could... i remember the many times she would stop me from exercising by standing in front of me... blocking my way.... or whenever im doing sit ups...she would come and stand beside me..and stare down at me.... hehe...... she wouldnt even let me read the newspaper.. everytime i place it on the floor to read it.. she would come and lie on top of it.... i remember how she would follow me around the house if i had food in my hands..didnt matter what kind of food it was... as long as it was food.. she'd be there.... she would stuff her nose inside the fridge everytime i opened it to get stuff out... and everytime i got home from perth.. the first thing i would do... is run to the back yard..and call out for her...and when she comes... ah...my heart just melts... her tail will be wagging .... her eyes will be shining.. and her ears will be down... as she's making her way to me... then i'd stoop down give her a hugeeeeee hug....and a biiiiig kisss....sigh.....
i remember watching her age and wish that she would never have to die.. i remember telling her..." sindy... must live long long ah!!!"
and now.....i never got to see her before she left.... the last time i saw her..was feb 18....and i remember telling her.... i'll see you in 5 months! ....but for sindy.... those 5 months never came.... she has lived for 15 years.... 15 long wonderful years saturated with memories..... i guess some people think i'm nuts... getting so sad and affected about a dog.... but hey, dogs are priceless....a dog is a friend who never judges....and never fails to love.... no one will understand the devastation of losing a pet until they have lost one close to their hearts...one that has brought so much joy..and taken the frustrations away even though they may have been the cause of it....
im so grateful that i was with my friends when this happend... their concern, words of comfort and even attempts to make me laugh... really touched me....audrey, yan jing, amos, lena, jon tng, alphonsus, boon wai, amanda, marvin, lynn, joey, nancy....
you guys knew that sindy was really im important to me, so she became important to you too... you may never have met her...but your concerns showed you care...
audrey, you've been ther when zeus died...and now with sindy... you were there when i lost my tripod and cow...... thanks for being there when one by ones my animals left me...i really appreciate it...
thank God for friends like you gues...
and thank God for the company of a dog, my full time angel.... sindy, the day we spent $80 to buy you, was a day that brought blessings for a lifte time... a day i will NEVER forget....

"For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."
Isaiah 41:13

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