Thursday, June 01, 2006
9:58 AM

practices for drama have been real crazy... everyday practice starts at 6...and the earliest we've ended is 830... and that was a hugeeee surprise.... we ended at 1230am today... really tiring.. tomrorrow is gonna be any better..but somehow.. even though it's extremely time consuming..and im seriously exhausted.... i really really enjoy it.. i know amos is probably saying yeah right..cos im always 'complaining' bout how long the practices are... but seriously.. i enjoy it... i guess it's cause of the people involved..and also the fact that everytime i get on stage.. something about my character develops...everytime i step on stage.. oh.. that feeling of excitement just rushes through me.... there's a different between the pre- stage feeling... the stage feeling..and the post stage feeling...... lemme attempt to explain or rather.. describe these feelings...... pre stage feeling is full of... 'lemme on!! lemme on!!' with butterflies in my tummy, i'll be running through my lines in my head and at the same time bursting to get on stage..... the on stage feeling...well... i just feeel so at home.. i just wanna keep standing there..... saying my lines over and over again.... reacting to the other characters and getting the audience involved making them feel like they're part of our world... it's amazing what we can do on stage.... impromptu lines and action..oh it's amazing..... post stage feelings...well.... i tend to feel that my stage time went to quickly.... and then i'd be anxiously waiting for my next scene..... sigh yeah, i cant seem to desribe fully in words the feelings..but that's basically what it feels like...
hmmm....
i'll be home in 24 days...see now that's fast....and i've still got soooo many things to do man...argh!! so much to do..so little time...
was dying to talk to my sister just now.. and i had to wait like..2 hours to talk to her...and those two hours were pure agony... haha.... when i finally got to talk to her.. i was just sitting in the corner of the dressing room.... catching up with her.... confiding in her and stuff....
hai... it's a complicated life.. but it's awesome.!! haha..
yes i do tend to contradict myself.. but what can i say.. we are complex creatures..some a little more than others... i wouldnt say i myself am complicated... but i do tend to get into complicated situations... but then again, maybe it's just me...thinking that it's complicated..when it actually isnt.... hmm.. i dont know.. maybe... could be.... i could just be making things difficult for myself...cos i tend to do that..pretty often actually.... i told you i think too much... ok and now im getting cuckoo...i think i need some rest...
haha..yes that sounds very nice actually..... im so tired i can literally hear my bed calling out to me... haha... ok that sounds a bittt scary actually..ahah.. oh fantastic, and now im freaking myself out... i am absolutely BRILLIANT..fantastic...... haiyoh...
i mean, i said i'd let go right?but have i really? suddenly it seems like i havent... then again maybe i have...but it's just all this sugar and tiredness in me that's making me feel like i havent.. possible? possibly.....
maybe i need some time off....and maybe i need .....hmm..what do i need? i think i need some sleep lah..AHAHA...
i think i better go do my quiet time...

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 3:13-14

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