Friday, December 15, 2006
7:32 AM

why do you always manage to disappoint me time and time again? .... maybe i just expect too much...

why do i always put you up on a pedestal, knowing that you dont even wanna be up there?

why can't i ever learn from the past that letting go may be the hardest but best thing to do?

why do i always allow you to treat me this way? do i really love myself this little?

why does every little thing i do, see or hear remind me of you?

why do i hope so much even when that little voice in my head tells me i'm kidding myself?

why do i lie in bed at night just thinking of that day, the fun we had?

why can't i just give up on something that never really started anyway?

why do i dream of you at night and then wake up wishing the dream could carry on into reality?

why all this confusion?.... or am i just over- reacting?

why is letting go so hard? i guess i need your help.. maybe that's what you're doing now...?

why is it that foolish games seems like an extremely appropriate song now?

why the hot, and cold? the clinging onto, the letting go?

why me? i'm not a toy..... so why me?

i thought i wouldnt face this kind of hurt anymore cos i thought those kind of people were gone from my life... but then i met you? i thought it was brilliant, i thought it was oh so fantastic....in fact, i still do.... cos no matter what i say, or feel, i wouldnt wanna not have met you....

-pardon the emo post..and no, it's not about you...so don't ask-

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