Sunday, April 29, 2007
8:47 PM

so what gives anyone the right to assume or make up reasons why i dont believe anymore? did anyone of you really bother asking me why i don't believe? so you think it's because of the hypocritical people? well lemme tell you, these people were just the icing and cherry on top of the cake. i'm not saying people in church or in any other religion have got to be perfect, hell, i'm so far from perfect, the perfect line is just a dot to me. i never believed because of the people. i believed because of who god said he was and i believed every single word of the bible to be true. jesus was my world. he was the first one i spoke to when i was happy, sad, confused, angry, elated. and here you are saying i never truly believed in the first place? honestly, tell me, whatever gave you the right to say who truly believes and who doesnt?.. so just because someone leaves, he or she never truly believed in the frist place? you believe because of things that has happened to you, all the blessings and stuff... so what about those people who believe even though their live is crap. and i'm talking, really crap. like they're broke, no family and everyone looks down on them. do they have no right to believe because of these? or are you saying that your believes based on your blessings are fake? cos honestly, you believe not because of your blessings, but because of who god is. havent you heard jesus say..."blessed are those who believe without seeing.." so only because you've seen your blessings you believe?
and who are you to say you dont wanna judge people, cos seirously, that's exactly what you're doing now. by assuming the various reasons why i don't believe, thinking them to be the hypocritical people or the fact that i never believed in the first place, is if you didnt already know, judging. you seriously think im so shallow? that i never put any thought into it? do you not think it's sccary for me right now having no one to fall back on? knowing that my future is not in his hands cos his hands arent really there? knowing that without religion, here in perth, i know nothing else? do you honestly think that im enjoying myself by making this decision? do you not see how difficult it is for me right now having people treat me differently? do you not think it's gonna be so hard for me when i tell my sisters? don't you think i've thought this through? do you seriously think this was such an easy decision to make?
i know i never got here on my own, and i am who i am today not because of myself. but because of those around me. so what's your point? did i ever try and take credit for that? i could never have done without my family and my friends. (although honestly, i could've done without some aquantainces.) so you say ingrained values and morals define a person. are you trying to say an atheist has no morals? that without god, people wont be good? so who has been doing the bombings, shootings and terrorism lately... religious people or atheist? so many wars have been fueled by religion, you telling me now that people with no religion wont have morals or values? only a person who believes in god can be good? people arent so weak willed. exactly, what you said, what or who a person believes, doesnt make him or her a better person. i rest my case. oh and by the way, life doesnt have to have a god to have a purpose. life is as wonderful, and meaningful as you are willing to make it. if you think life only has a purpose if there is a god, then i guess you're wasting your time. because there is only one life, that's what makes it worth living well. that's what makes it sweet.

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