Thursday, September 20, 2007
7:34 AM

ever had the feeling like, you could be surrounded by a million people but yet you still feel like the only one in your world?
i havent found a single person that i can really be totally myself in front, who has not left me disappointed. i hate it when people change, and when i become replaceable. i need someone who understands me, who makes me laugh, whom i make laugh, who enjoys the same music, movies, books.. someone who not only knows im irreplaceable, but who literally does not have me replaced. i know people insist they havent replaced me, but believe me, you have. and i know it, even though you may deny it. i just hate it so much. i hate how people undervalue me. i hate it when people think they're better than me, i hate it when people look down on me, i hate it when people think they're smarter than me. so far, i have lived 21 years. i thought i found someone, but i didnt. i need someone that i can have that special connection with. i dont have that. it's like my sister and her best friend. they've been best friends since they were 9. i need that. i want that. i havent got that. maybe im just too fussy.
i was born for so much more than this. i dont know where my place it. i dont wanna fit in, i dont wanna be ordinary.

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