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Thursday, May 04, 2006
11:03 PM
i just spent the afternoon reminiscing bout the days gone by... was having lunch with amos...and started thinknig bout my seconddary and primary school days..those were the days man.. so fun..
hmmm..today was cold...so chilly... ok fine maybe only to me... while walking to uni i saw so many people clothed in summer wear.... my eyes nearly popped out of my head.. i mean.. it's so cold!? how in the world can these people possibly be wearing jeans and a top... or even, tshirt and shorts.. seirously!? but it did help to see the occasional asian wearing a fur lined jacket accompanied with scarf..... cos i too was wearing a jacket and scarf..ahah... it was cold ok!
im really sleepie now... didnt have sufficient sleep last night..so therefore, now my eyelids are feelnig heavy and they are threatening to close any minute....
but im going for ice cream with yan jing later..so yay! ice cream!! but i have to limit myself to just 1 scoop... i know you're thinking... 1 scoop isnt that normal? but you dont know me.. when i go for ice cream.. i really go for ice cream..the minimum number of scoops i go for... is 2... so yes... im a ice creamaholic.... i should go for like.. the ice cream version of alcoholic anonymous.. " hi my name is ailing...and im an ice creamaholic.." haha
oh wells..anyways!!
i wanna get nice pretty shoes.. ever since i saw that really nice shoe at spend less shoes... yes that's what the shop is called... i cant stop thinking of pretty ballet looking shoes.. oh no.. i think im addicted to them... they are sooooo prettty!! they're drop dead gorgeous! if those shoes were a man... i'd be going crazy..ahha.. ok i know, im a tad insane.. but it's ok.. im sure you understand...
i just turned to look at my bed..and boy does it loook sooooooo welcoming.... considering the weather.. my sleepiness..and the warmth of my bed... oh boy.... ahhh..no no.. i shall RESIST!!!
nothing much has been happening actually... well...nothing much that i wanna blog about for the whole world to read..ahah..if you wanna know.. come and ask me instead...
cooke for my cell group yesterday..and yay! Praise the Lord it was a succeess.....and no.. i did not burn down the kitchen..and no.... they did not get food poisoning..... those the two standard questions that people always ask me when i cook..super sian man these people.. have a little bit more faith in my cooking lah please... cell group yesterday was good....
"in the silence i can hear Him say.. ' the river runs...and the river hides..out to the ocean and under the sky.. I promise you the answer will come... hold on to patience and watch for the sign... everything in its time'..."that was from the song.. everything in its time...by corrine may.....
hai.. God's timing... sometimes we dont understand..and sometimes it's so hard to follow... but i guess....it's true.. we gotta hold onto patience...
i guess the danger comes when we really want things to happen so badly... that we deceive ourselves into thinking that what we want.. is God's will.. even when we know deep down that it's not.... sometimes we gotta learn to trust God..more than our feeelings... the things we want.. may not be God's will...i used to hate it when people came and told me what i should do.... like when my leaders in church came to talk to me and tell me what i should not be doing..and stuff like that.. i used to hate it.. but now.. i welcome it with open arms...cos i had the consequences when i didnt listen... i wish i could turn back time... but it's no point wishing..cos it cant happen.... but i really thank God for the people in my life that have told me things that were neccesary for me to hear.. but werent exactly what i wanted to hear.. i thank God that these people love me enough to share these things with me even though they knew i may not like it...but they did it anyway cos it was to help me..... thank God for these people... for my homestay parents... for boon wai... for yan jing... for melvin goh... for karen... for my sister... they've told me things that have helped me to make the proper decisions..... they helped me to look further...to look to things of God..and to follow His way despite my feeelings...i really pray that i can do that for my friends that i love so much... i pray that I will be able to encourage them when they're down..cry when they cry..laugh when they laugh.. tell them things they dont wanna hear when they have to hear it..... i pray that i will also learn from them... that when they tell me things for my own good.. i wont resent it..but appreciate it... and ask them to pray for me... and walk the way God wants me to walk...
so you guys reading my blog.. my goood, close friends like: joey, frances, amos, lip eng, alfred, boon wai, sheryl, marvin, ah goh, jon, and those whom i have unintentionally left out.. you guys know who you are.... please scold me when you have to.... and lead me when you should.... love me especially when im unlovable... and encourage me when i feel like giving up....
i will do all that for you... i will try my utmost best.... i promise.. = )
"Can two walk together, except they be agreed?"Amos 3:3too true... too true...
to spur each other on ...to run the race God has set before us... we all need that special someone.. to be there spiritually for us.... for just as pastor benny ho said.. " it is always easier to pull someone down.. then it is to pull someone up.." do the right thing....dont be with someone just for yourself.... do it for God as well... will He be glorified? cos it's all about Him.... sigh.. it's so hard isn't it... but it all comes down to our love for God...do we love God more? do we love God more to obey His word... like what Jesus said.." why do you call me Lord and not do the things i say?"
i am a sinner.. guilty before the judge..... but the blood of Christ... has set me free.... = )
Lord, i need Your strength and Your grace to do things Your way.. to glorify You.. help me to trust You despite my feelings.. help me to look to You..to focus on You even when i dont feel like it.. draw me close...and help me to know.. that You know better.. that Your ways are better than mine... teach me to put aside everything that is hindering my walk with You... teach me to make decisions based on You...
i know it was a very random jump in topics... but the words just came.. i had no control....
"He must increase, but I must decrease."John 3:30"If ye love me, keep my commandments."John 14:15"And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?"Luke 6:46"For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ."Galatians 1:10"Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is."Ephesians 5:17"But my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."Philippians 4:19"Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth."Colossians 3:2"And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men."Colossians 3:23"Therefore let us not sleep, as do others; but let us watch and be sober."1 Thessalonians 5:6"Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin that doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."Hebrews 12:1-2
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