Saturday, October 06, 2007
12:15 PM

i miss my granny so much. i have never missed someone this much ever. i wanna go back to scotland. because walking around scotland, felt as if i walking around with her. walking the ground she used to walk on, made me feel close to her. she was such an amazing woman. and i miss her so goddamn much, it hurts so bad.

if there is one person i wanna be with right now. it would be her. im glad for all the time i spent with her, i only wish i could've had more time with her. to me, she will always be the best, most beautiful woman to ever walk the face of the earth. she is the kind of woman i wanna become. she is my hero. my favourite person.

looking at the last birthday card she ever gave me.. her writing..."darling, have a nice day.... lots of love, grannie" with the wrinkled 20 pounds enclosed inside.. knowing that she touched it. i can just picture her wearing her reading glasses. i remember the last time i saw her, she cried when she left. that was one of the worst days of my life. the worst was when she left the world. the worst is knowing she is no longer there.

and if tears could bring her back, i would cry a thousand oceans and more.

♥;